I was supposed to be an actor.
I was supposed to be on a “Top 30 Under 30” magazine cover.
I was supposed to be Jennifer Lawrence, before Jennifer Lawrence.
But life doesn’t always work out the way you want it to. Despite how much planning, effort, time, training, dreaming, working, crying you do, sometimes life just doesn’t care. That’s my life. It doesn’t care.
I don’t like to say I “gave up” on my dreams, but I came to a point where I had to branch out and experience life from the perspective of someone who isn’t failing at everything. So here I am, 30 (ish), living in Chicago, trying to make the best of the perpetual curve ball that is my life.
I’m not sure what I’m doing these days. I have no plans (super weird for me), I’m just going day-to-day and seeing what happens. I still have dreams, I have hopes, but I’m not living life with only those things in mind. Maybe I’ll find my right path, maybe I won’t. At this point I’m just hoping for a little more adventure than crying in my shower after another disappointing turn in my well laid plans.
What I’m not: I’m not a homeschooling mom, I’m not overly crafty (although I do have some skills), I’m not going to tell you how to budget your household or offer any life advice (really, I’m in no position for that).
What I am is a relatively young woman (I say relatively, I’m very ageist but mostly against myself) embarking on real life for what feels like the first time. If you’re anything like me (please tell me I’m not alone) I’m hoping to offer a place where you can feel a little less loser, and little more “it’s okay to not have my life together yet”.
So this is me and this is my blog. It’s not much but it’s a start. You’re welcome to come along for the ride.